Oh golly! Has it really been over a year?

I am such a horrible blogger! I never wrote in journals or diaries when I was a kid. I always thought writing in a diary felt too forced. Who was going to read it anyway??? I did enjoy reading my sisters diary though. She hated that. She would write soooo many hate Emily entries just to get me upset. Did it work? Ask my therapist.

My hamster Orlando kept a diary! He was a very good journalist in his 2 long years! Ah I can just see him now...dabbing his little feet in the ink, walking across the page, documenting his daily doings. It probably read something like "Today I woke with a wood chip lodged up my butt. I ate that wood chip. Then I ran off those extra carbs on my wheel. I still wish they would get me a bigger wheel. My man parts prevent me from fitting totally in the wheel. Let's see, oh yes! I then stuffed 25 cheerios in my cheeks. I later regretted that when I tried to snack on them up in my loft and got stuck in the tube. Well, that is all for now. I just finished unstuffing my cheeks and I'm tired now. Must sleep. Fuzzily yours, Orlando."

See! He was a fantastic diary dude! Mine wouldn't have been anywhere near as interesting as that.

Anyway, back to reality. Being a stay at home mom full time now was quite the adjustment. I seriously went through a mourning period when I quit my job. I quit a job that I truly loved, a lot of dear friends completely cut me off... (they didn't even come to say good bye, wow. Talk about true colors, eh?) Sorry, done with my rant. Wait, no I'm not!!! How can someone say they're friends with you, come to your house for parties, have you watch their kiddos when they're in a bind, go shopping, go to dinners, invite you to drinks, text and text and text, gossip with you (and probably about you come to think of it) for FIVE YEARS and then BAM! when you quit your job they go totally frigid and cut you off completely???? I don't get it. Just because I'm not cool like you and don't teach at your little school any more means that you're above me? That you no longer consider me even someone you would smile at? Blah! Screw you!

Ok, now I'm done. Well, for now. From time to time it feels good to rant and rave, right? I mean, those people who keep all their feelings all bottled up inside get so emotionally constipated that they reek of self loathing. (wow! Look at those big words! I should be playing Scrabble! OH! ADD moment, be right back.......)

And I'm back! My previous comment about Scrabble reminded me that I wanted to download the Words With Friends App. :)

Back to being a stay at home Mom. I don't know why I had a full time job for the past 6 years. I missed out on so much great time with my children. Now they're 6 and 4 and both in school. I am enjoying getting to work in their classrooms, going on field trips and even being a Montessori music teacher! I now feel so bad for the kiddos who get dropped off at school at 7am and picked up at 5 pm. I am embarrassed to admit that my daughters used to be those kiddos. Then by the time we got home it was in time for dinner, bath, book and then bed. We never played! Now we get up at 7 and play for over an hour, go to school and then are picked up by 3 and play and eat until 8! Wow! It's like I'm getting a bonus every day.

Anyway, I'm getting long winded today. I should go study my script. I've been working on a production which opens in 2 weeks and I need to get off that dang book!!

Talk at you later!